The begining...

I can safely say things are no longer the same in any which way...but i can say I am rid of her poison, and the after effects still linger but as each day passes the more the effects wear off. I understand now what the goal was and to be honest it almost worked. With that failure in mind, it's only matter of time now...then people will finally see. I know i am still going to lose many battles..but everything in this universe tends to unfold as it should. It's been a long road to where i have ended up, but the amount of knowledge and experience i have developped over 2 yrs has been immense. So now i am at that point in the road for me to start to think about starting over. It's exciting in a way because with knowing i did it right and well i know it takes 2 to tango...i had no say in mine..lol. I know my next one is forever...i want to build a legacy to be able to look back on and be blow away. I'm am ready and willing to work my ass of to do so...But i don't want to do it alone.

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This weekend was ground breaking and monumental...only a matter of time..finally made it :)

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Its like everything has now been placed for me...it is my time to shine.

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Yup...i know it has...

Yes!!! I know i know it's been too long since i last wrote. I guess during that time a lot has gone on..some stuff i can write but other i need to and "CHOOSE" to keep to myself for now. One big thing that has happened and was a growing experience, is that i watched my youth finaly come to rest. What I mean by that is how i saw life, the possibilities and hopes and rdreams have all but faded. They are there but my passion and emotion towards it has become docile and more relaxed. It's kinda sad but iam holding on to that one little piece, because i truly and firmly believe we should all have the inner child inside of us

The long road coming to an end....

Well it begins…March 5^th I go to criminal court to end the false charges against me…and in turn gives my voice back.  I can’t wait…and on top of that it is coming closer to my babies coming home…FINALLY!!!!!  I will write more but needed to put this down.

 

 

The Best Kids Ever

Funny thing I forgot....

I forgot to mention the fact that because of the good that "Did" happen last night almost prompted me to write a letter...When everything came to light i realized one thing i was doing wrong...well not wrong but hindering me from moving forward. I had a wall i had built up and was a wall i would not let any other woman in. I had no idea i was doing it until like i said everything fell into place. So when i got home and after the two calls i had one with Joelle and the other with Walaa, I almost wrote a letter to you know who...but not directly to her or communicate but more of a letter of letting go...for me and to pretty much say my part of how hard it will be to be with someone else...yes i know i am divorced and going through child custody dispute...but I have met a lot of women and it's funny none of them really had qualities (AND NO NOT LIKE HERS) but i mean someone who can be a good mother, friend, wife...most girls I've met really don't seem to have a clue and are more interested in many men as opposed to settling for one...that's not my thing. So now I am not sure what to do...I know i can write something like that on paper and put it away...but my blog here is supposed to be private for my eyes only...so my fear is if i do she will again try and have me arrested and thrown in jail for trying to communicate with her. So still debating....anyway, i have to figure out what i should do for after work. Got's to go.

Like I know anymore....Should I even try and figure it out?

Yesterday was a weird day...some good mixed with some bad. A co-worker's friend passed away and it crushed her. Seeing her cry was rather heart breaking which was the bad part of the day. But the part where it got strange was a lot of things i have questioned about myself came to light and i got answers...well so i thought until what 15 mins ago...Part of me just doesn't understand anymore...I don't get how people say one thing and do another...am i wrong to not be like the rest? Is it wrong to say what i mean and mean what i say? It's almost as if life is showing me things in the end will be ok but i have to go through hell and back in order to learn and grow...but this is what almost 2 years now? I am not gonna let it get to me today not this time. Anyway i am out for now, at work trying to finish the day...Fuck em' if they can't take a joke....