Again the tampering....

I get up and see again my site has been tampered with...meh I don't care...the more it happens the better off for me I guess...The police will be over tomorrow looking over things thatI have found as well as a few other things that need to be discussed that have come to light. As much as I want to give up, everyone is telling me not too...I don't have the heart to go any further, and it's not because I don't love my kids....I would give life for them, I love them more then anyone can imagine...but I guess the reason why I don't want to go further with all of this is because of the lies...and people will end up getting hurt over them...and these aren't lies of mine either...Everyone knows me as a guy who hates stress, fighting and arguing...I like to be happy as much as I can and enjoy life as much as I can...but this is the first time in my life where i feel truly helpless, hopeless and alone in this fight...even though I'm not...I never wanted this...and it's funny cause they will probably use portions of my blog in court...only the ones they feel make me look stupid or something...but if they read the whole thing they would realize I am not...and most probably see there is more the the problem then the realize...and not stemming from me either...This has been the hardest time of my life....and I don't think it wil change unless I get my babies back...it will balance life out, well...to a certain extent...there will still be the other things to worry about...but with my babies home protected from all the hate, hurt and drama of all of this. This is what it really is, a huge play...an act...and everyone knows it....except on my side...I am not acting nor am i playing...my feelings are genuine, and so is my hurt....Oh I guess a piece of advice...if anyone goes through something like this...remember you are not allowed to hurt, feel pain, care or love...cause if you do...well they look at it as being obbssesive, not caring for your kids...psychotic...damn the list goes on and on...I just realized something...this is all based off lies...either way you look at it...one big fat juicy lie...and in the end the kids pay the price...NOT FAIR! So today is second to last day for me to do anything...do I do something? or just sit back and enjoy what time I have left of a somewhat normal life? or do I find whatever strength i have and go out fighting? Meh...I don't believe in miracles anymore...I don't believe in hope anymore...faith...anything...almost to the point where I do not believe in myself....This is the toll that all of this has taken on me...and I know other Fathers have gone through the same thing...it's not a nice site to see...because I have seen before and after pictures...life is very scary on the other end of the stick...I am in the middle right now...teetering towards the wrong end...I wish there was a way to stop it.