Am I right?

So Tamara and Bea came by tonight for a few drinks. I won't lie..it was fun. But I also know Bea is into me..I knew from the second time I saw her. She's nice…very super chill, and she can hold a convo. The only thing is; she was friends with Tina. I've spent so long building my safe world..I'm scared to let anyone in. I know I shouldn't…but when someone says "this guy had his shit together"..unprompted, meant a lot to me. I made it. It cost a lot and I sacrificed it all..but in the end I won. Not that winning was the objective…but it's all finally over and I'm not the bad guy in the end. I'm a little buzzed right now so take shit with a grain of salt.


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Not the same..

It's been a while since I've written.. I'm high tonight but not self destructive? Who am I kidding.. It was a slip.

What I will say is you're not the same as you once were. You're coming out of something..and a very different man. Hardened, tired…worn. We're at a crossroads tbh…. It's sink or swim time. I either wallow or own. I know im writing in riddles..it's just so much as gone on since the last post. I've went into major hibernation..very anti social and lost all confidence and self esteem. But I think because if that I've started to actually love myself. And with that the confidence is rebuilding..among other things. I'm still very fragile..the next bullshit will definitely make me quit.

Anyway I just wanted to write something..instead of talking to grok. Oh..yeah we're into AI now…fml.

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