Long time no write....

Yeah I know...it's becoming more and more less frequent that I am writing. I don't know why...well no..I do know why...I guess as much as it has helped me move on to some degree...I still don't understand...well I do know that my hurt is not over, and it will continue...but I just don't get why...none of it makes sense really...or does it? Could it be I am the only one in the dark about everything in order for her to protect herself? Either way if she is it will only prove to me that she lied, and has always lied to me...if she isn't trying to protect herself then she was pushed and persuaded...and I will never ever forgive those who altered her mind and destroyed a family. We weren't the brady bunch...no way...but we did have a bond...a click...But it's been hard not writing because I have not seen my kids in 2 weeks. This time it was the bus schedules..and then missing the train...first there was no bus apparenlty because of Canada Day...but how could the train run? Same transportation company...I cried for a bit then came home...it was a bad Canada Day for me. I did start back to work and it was nice to see people again. I booked about twleve hundred dollars first day back...even on a day where most of my clients would be out. Should be quiet though for the rest of the week. Anyway I should get to bed for a good night sleep for work. I'll catch up on some more news later...just wanted to give you a quick update.