6 Days...

Six days till I go back to court...again to be pushed, bet you 20$...but i am surprised this time...well knock on wood...but usually i got overly stressed about court, but this time for some reason i don't feel that...i even thought i was trying to hide it or from it, but im not. My feelings have been weird...things that have been happening have been weird...not in a bad way though just...i guess uuughhh therei go again with my mental block...why can't i write like i used to? My thougts are so clear but so many of them and can't organize them...I'll come back when i can...all i know is for some reason i am feeling things will be ok...for the first time i feel that...i dont know why though...maybe becaue the dreams have subsided for now? I don't know...anyway i have to figure out how i am gonna see my babies saturday...i am just happy i got the job i wanted...so now i should be able to start to afford it...Thank you god.