Now it begins

I went yesterday and things were done…needless to say it was the hardest thing I had to do.  Going every month was straining but I knew the outcomes so it didn’t play with me too much.  Yesterday mind you was totally draining, but was taken with open arms.  It’s funny though how I seem to predict or to have this very big empathy feeling or vibe feeling.  Do I know too much for my own good?  I am not saying I am psychic, please god no…I am far from it…lol…but I guess it’s been the small things that have happened since the last time I wrote.  I really don’t want to get into it now…I should but I guess what I can say is, it’s sad to see how people can be two faced when you give them nothing but the world and your trust…maybe my life change wasn’t the best thing to do?  I think the only ones who deserve my honesty, loyalty respect & trust should be my kids…mind you they have always had that…and no matter what the final outcome could be, they will always have it.  Maybe it’s time I sit back and not focus anymore at rebuilding in the sense of starting over…I don’t think there is a point anymore…so maybe I should just do what I do best and that is being a Daddy first and excelling at a job I am good at.  Anyway I’m @ work so I should get back to it.  Maybe I will write later about what happened.