Remember when I said....

Not sure if I ever blogged those exact words but...Remember when I said I came full circle in my life? Well I think I did. It's been nearly 2 weeks now since I found out from one of my clients that I'm still eligible for the United States Marine Corps. I didn't believe it at first so I made a call to Staff Sargent Mendola who then put my in contact with Sargent Halford. They were the coolest people to talk to and very helpful. I asked some questions and they acknowledged the fact the new cut off age limit is 34. And I know what alllllllll of you are thinking and probably have thought since you heard me start talking about the Marines.....what about my kids? right? I know....and believe me they are and will always be the focal point of my decision. I think this is the first time i have to make a life changing decision on my own...i mean not being able to discuss with a partner. But part of my thinking is this...no matter how hard I fight the system is on her side...even though i have written proof this was all set up. So I am going to ask you something...provided I am right about my statement...Do you think it's fair for someone to lie to get out of a relationship...destroy not only one persons but a whole family and traumatise their kids, and use the ex-spouse as a stepping stone to get herself in a comfortable life setting, while they become poor...and work just so they can pay the support for their kids and leave them to not be able to do anything with themselves in life? and leave them with virtually nothing? No I know it's wrong and I'm sure you do to....well that's me. As much as it hasn't broken my spirits...I am in a position now where I can live out my childhood dream and become a United States Marine Corps Soldier. And I am not going in as just infantry, I am going in (if I decide) to become an officer...further my education. But it's not the only reason why I am and want to do this, I am also doing this to open doorways for my children...so they can have all the opportunity in the world for when they get older...and it is also a sacrifice...because I will have to give up the fight for my kids (for the time being) and won't be seeing my kids for a long time...well minimum 15 weeks...You might think I'm selfish, but only seeing my kids 3hrs on Saturday...and well getting to the point where i simple can't afford going to see them...and get this...on top of what I pay for support I pay an extra $80 a week to see my kids...I don't care what anyone says I never ever payed $80 in one day when we were all a family...and we sure as hell never had to pay $650 a month on them...so I ask you...if i can't afford to see my kids what do I do? Sit there and look like a dead beat father to which I'm not? No way...I'm willing to sacrifice my body and soul for my kids to join the Marines...and I think that is and has to be the most ultimate sacrifice and human can make for their child...especially if it means opening doors for them so they can have a better future. Honestly this isn't gonna happen till probably this summer...there is a lot to consider and a lot of thought to put into it..it's a huge commitment and a hard life changing decision.