Its official (by me) - my health has become very poor and shows. I've struggled for three years to manage to survive and not taking the easy way out by not working. I in all sense of the phrase "sacrificed my body and soul"...and I did it out of love...the love for my kids...I didn't do it intentionally but with the money I needed just to be able to see them for 6hrs and what I pay in support left me with just enough to live with bare minimum...and after three years it has finally taken its toll. I'm not saying I'm dying - but her change in stance with everything is a blessing because I know I won't last another year like this. Its not just not having, its also the emotional stress I have to go through every week...its hard not to have had the chance to be a full time parent...missing out on their first plays..first swim,bike ride (without training wheels)...all the first time things...all I know is if this doesn't end soon the ones who really lost since March 8th 2006 @ 9:37am were my children...because I'm actually nervous about it for real now.
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