Tomorrow is going to hopefully be a day of change. New job..I should have it no problem. I'm just glad I guess I'm not going to be let go for "missing" In a way though I don't care @ this point. The place isn't the same since I left and even if I did stay I wouldn't get my clients back. I see everyone struggling even top reps - so maybe it is a sign to change. When and how though will I get my sign with Tina? Someday's things look like there's hope and other days...I don't know. I'm sorry for always talking about this...I guess this is the only real place I can talk about it. I don't like talking to others anymore because its old news and most don't really know what to say anymore. I guess she confuses me when she says one thing and does another...so regardless if she said we will never be, why does she let me in on her personal and physical pain? One of the last things we talked about was work and she said "Its not easy I know..they made me feel guilty when I took time off". I know its not severely personal, but like she said communication is strictly about the kids? Ummm this wasn't. As much as I'd like to read into it I can't and shouldn't. But I care for her so much. I don't think anyone else could or will...and even "if" she met someone they don't nor will they ever know her like I do...and that I'm very confident in. Like I told my dad - maybe her and I are destined to live apart and be single yet be together? I know it sounds odd but I don't have any other explanation...she is like my estranged wife...and the term fits if u look it up. Anyway I'm going to try and get some sleep...I just hope I'm being looked over and watched over...the emptiness I feel without her is real...she is the other part of me I am seriously lacking. If she only knew...
Sent from my BlackBerry or iPhone on the Rogers Wireless Network
No comments:
Post a Comment