What happens next?

I don't know anymore - now I just don't know. One min she tells me all this stuff, like she's emotionally weak, and some of her days @ work and then the next second back to being cold?!?! It really hit home though hearing her Dad in the background...he was intown for surgery which I'm hoping will finally make him better...I liked him...but anyway yeah, when I heard his voice it just made it hard for me...The kids tell me to hope? Well Dre does, but I don't think he understands...he says he does but...its just weird...I don't even know why I'm blogging this to tell you the truth. All I know is tonight I realized I'm in tune with a lot now...I still need to tweak a few things here and there but I am. I also realized the more @ peace I am the better I see...the more the opposite I become the less I see. Tonight proved it...especially knowing a month before tonight that it would happen? LOL...yeah figure that out. And it was when my and a friend Randy were trying to meet up for coffee when I sent him a msg and once done I noticed my friend grace posted a status...and for a second I pictured them too meeting...but not actually thinking that. There was no thought process to how I knew tonight would be...grace txt'd me earlier to see about hanging out and when I called her I was txt'ing my friend Randy trying to make plans, when grace blurted out that one of my friends just sent a request to be added and when she told me who I knew...I laughed and told her that's kinda ironic because I was txt'ing him as we spoke. Now keep in mind neither of them had ANY prior knowledge that I even hung out with either until I told them. So plans for coffee were made and yeah....she is probably still on the phone with him lol. It was really cool seeing Randy though - been 5 years but that was a blur cause it was fresh separation...like 4 months I think. I don't remember a lot of the first year. But yeah he hasn't changed since high school, looks older but still the same. Then I came home to a msg congratulating me on getting my kids sorta back...that was the icing. But tonight had purpose and meaning. Even with the SuperMoon we had tonight there is more to come. Anyway nite
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