Weekend of reflecting....

Well i did a load of reflecting this weekend. Where i went wrong in life...where everything went wrong in life. I went and saw my kids on Saturday and when i went to do Dregans homework i noticed he is leaving out his other last name...My last name...I even asked Dre why...he said he forgot how to spell it...I almost cried but kept my composure. Now it is becoming more and more clear as each day passes, that i never did anything to harm anyone. It is scary to see how it's easy for someone to hold the power to destroy someone life based off lies...and fear...and knowing now this was alll set up...what does a person do to redeem himself? Well i have the answer to that one, but keeping it to myself. One thing i can mention is i am writting a book. Why? well maybe it's because i am tired of hiding the real truth about how things went on...look I have never ever claimed to be perfect. But living a life of fear...and i mean for 7 months i have been afriad to say anything...to talk to anyone, to do anything in fear of retaliation which does happen frequently...only when i see my kids now. But i was lead to believe for this long that i was this mean evil person who was abusive, like a drunk would be when he got home from work...but i was the opposite...when my book is finished you will see how things developed the way they did and you will finally see the truth for what it is...and maybe then can i redeem myself and finish building a life i started to create and come out on top like a lot of people are telling me. But...i do have certain rules i do have to abide by...like for now untill my charges are aquitted in June i cannot say or mention certain things...it could be in breach of my conditions...but as long as i write about the past and nothing about todays event's (for the time being) then that is what I will be doing...not sure if it will be an online book or something i wll eventually get published. I am not going to sit back and let my name be destroyed...i will get back what I lost.