This is the new begining....(Con't)

I didn't get the call yet for my place...but the remorse is setting in...seeing everything for what it really is...I am also looking for a new job...I may have one already. I am sending my CV in tomorrow...what my intention is, is to totally blow my month out of the water ....then hand my letter of resignation...I do not and will not let them have the last laugh...they are getting loads of it by moving me to a desk away from everyone...this is what i go through everyday...from being a well like person always full of enrgy and life to a hermit in a corner...like how people look at bums on the street...ask me how i do it?...I have no idea...excpet for dregan and Kiara...because they love me unconditionally...or untill they too get brainwashed which is slowly starting and it is evident...I'm not sure if i mentioned it but Tamara finally admitted to being one of the people who DESTROYED my life and family...here take a read...oh last thing before i throw it in...Things are starting to come together now...all the pieces...everything...and I just can't wait to sit there at the top of the mountain again and look down and show I was right about everything from the get go. So here is her little email to me, and at some points in the email...LOL...meh...just read:

Dave,

Hi, I know you hate me and all but I think that we need to make a truce for your mothers sake. Christmas isn't going to be the same cause all us kids aren't going to be there. I know that I did some wrong but so did you and I think that we need to at least be able to be civil with one another. We are family like it or not and I think that family should always forgive each other for their mistakes. I'm not asking for us to be close as can be but to at least be able to sit in the same room with each other.

I guess that is all i really have to say and I'm sorry for the wrong I have done and I'm hoping that you feel the same way. We have known each other for way too long to let all of this end any friendship that we may have had.I have not contacted you till now because i figured you wouldn't want to hear from me. And I'm sure you still dont but I thought that I would at least give it a try. I am sorry and hope that we can maybe get over this someday.

I dont know if you got the e-mail from me about your neice that was born 11/28/2006 but I hope you got it. I would like you to meet her some day.

Tamara

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