Funny thing I forgot....

I forgot to mention the fact that because of the good that "Did" happen last night almost prompted me to write a letter...When everything came to light i realized one thing i was doing wrong...well not wrong but hindering me from moving forward. I had a wall i had built up and was a wall i would not let any other woman in. I had no idea i was doing it until like i said everything fell into place. So when i got home and after the two calls i had one with Joelle and the other with Walaa, I almost wrote a letter to you know who...but not directly to her or communicate but more of a letter of letting go...for me and to pretty much say my part of how hard it will be to be with someone else...yes i know i am divorced and going through child custody dispute...but I have met a lot of women and it's funny none of them really had qualities (AND NO NOT LIKE HERS) but i mean someone who can be a good mother, friend, wife...most girls I've met really don't seem to have a clue and are more interested in many men as opposed to settling for one...that's not my thing. So now I am not sure what to do...I know i can write something like that on paper and put it away...but my blog here is supposed to be private for my eyes only...so my fear is if i do she will again try and have me arrested and thrown in jail for trying to communicate with her. So still debating....anyway, i have to figure out what i should do for after work. Got's to go.