Closure from a 5 year old...and another eventful saturday

What I have is a curse and nothing more...I knew going today was going to bring another blow. LikeI told Meghan, my Mom and others...February 2nd was the starting of something. I really have so much to write, but right now i am still in shock and it's funny, I was right about one thing i've notcied...there are key things people have said along the way like "Heart Cancer" which is what i'm feeling now...I get my 5 year old daughter telling me after a tickle fight with her and Dregan she goes to me "That's how our new daddy plays with us"...needless to say the heart is now on it's way to turning to stone. I am still in shock, hurt...haven't cried yet but feel the tears there so that's why i don't want to write to much...not the right time. Anyway yeah, so there ya have it...my closure.....from a 5 year old. I just want to say thank you.