Been a few days...

Well it has been a bit since I last wrote. Been doing a lot of reflecting again...soul searching...thinking...wow...so much had...so much gone...But now it's time for me to get back on track...I was off track for about a week...too much to take in. Seeing the kids on Saturday was freaking kewl...it was the best part of my week. :-) They had McDonalds for lunch which they were all over. ;-) They did some painting so I'll scan them and post them. Paul's been hanging out with me to help me out. He ducked out for a bit because everything got way too intense. Which I agree with. But now things are a little calmer...so he is coming by more often. It helps, and the kids love him like an uncle. He has been in their lives quite a bit. He feels like this is dream like as well...not really happening type thing...he is sad too about all of it. He loves us both and hates to see things or us go through this. That is a true friend. I have to go back to work in like 2 weeks...not sure how that's gonna turn out...I am not even sure I am ready to go back...too scared maybe...not sure what to do really. But with paul staying here it will help out on cash flow until i do go back. All I know is, life seems very different...out of place even. Anyway it's clean the house day...everysunday...not sure if i should do the lawn...it may rain and it's not that hot out...meh...I think next week should rather be interesting though...got a funny feeling....don't you just love it when I say that ;-)