Early Morning...

Well I actually woke up at a reasonable hour. Mind you I think it was the kids at school that did it. I think it's getting closer to them ending school so they are outside and man they are really excited today. :-) Then I started thinking of Dre cause he goes there and how much fun he would have been having...God I miss them...and I know you know. My head again and heart this morning are hurting...filled with unpleasant thoughts...thoughts of old memories (good ones)...just everything...and believe me I try every day to get it out of my mind and focus on something else...but it's not easy at all..in fact it's next to impossible. I know it's over with her and I...I do know this...but why do I feel somewhere down the road things might happen again? But then I look at everything that has happened and say how? How could we? Maybe it's just me...I don't know...all I know is I pray everynight this never would have happened...I guess you always realize after how much something really means to you. But I did appreciate what I did have...but maybe not enough?