Got some feedback....

Well I got some feedback from a complete stranger...well sort of...I had her read some of my blog to show her what was up...I wanted someone completely neutral of everything to try and grasp what I am going through...and what the kids are going through...as I told her there are 3 sides to every story, my side their side and the truth...but like I said to her it would only be me really lying to myself, if it was all lies that I have been typing since May 3rd...but they haven't been...that's what's scary...She said she would be there for me when I needed her, but I don't think I could muster up enough courage to lean on her for support...She even knows how awkward it is to even talk to another girl let alone look at one...so I may just keep it to myself from here on in...she is too cool and nice of a person to dump my life on...not fair. I did thank her though for lending an ear. Lexi if you are reading this Thx :-)