Tomorrow is the start of something new...

Well tomorrow is the start of something new. Waking up to go to the hospital to get my doctors note, then to pick Jesse up, bring my medical note to work then to come back here to help me get organized and clean up a bit...not that my place is that messy, but it could use a touch up. My mom may come over after, or later in the week to help with my finances, and cutting certain things I really don't need. then I will start to be more lean and things should lighten up on the money side of things. I am not going to let her win and take everything from me...she should be thankful I don't just quit my job and go on welfare....cause then she would get nothing at all...But I am better then that. I know she would not use the money for the kids...Funny thing is Kiara calls her Tina...not Mommy...every drawing she has done it says I love Daddy, and I love Tina...Strange...but who knows...I am feeling the energy again...but what follows it is her wrath...so I am being extra careful. I should get a good night sleep tonight if I am going to be up early...I have no other choice but to get the doctors note to HR first thing tomorrow. God, the one thing I don't really do anymore is listen to music...which was one of my passions...I guess cause it reminds me of her...everything does...it helped me think. I HAVE TO TAKE THE POWER BACK FROM HER! MY SOUL! MY HEART! AND MY 2 PRECIOUS CHILDREN! She even thinks she is taking the cats...and it's rather funny...cause she tell the courts I haven't taken care of my children in 8 years...she hasn't taken care of the new kittens we got since we got them...and she sure is hell not taking lucky from me...I had him before I met her...he has seen my life in full just about...and he knows the truth....oh yeah, there is two more things I will never forgive her for either....getting rid of Bronx my dog when I was at work one day...she was scared of him so decided to get rid of him...and knowing fully if I was home she wouldn't be able to...and the second thing is Freya...Besides Lucky being my loyal cat, Freya his daughter..born from Tina's cat Sassy, died in September of kidney failure...I wanted Freya to pass on here at home with family, but she decided to leave her die at the vets. She then said it may have been the wrong idea...This cat would always know when I got home from work cause she would wait at the door for me, and follow me everywhere...and give me nothing but attention and affection. I still hurt to this day about her death. Anyway I may wrote more later...not sure yet, but maybe...My friend Glynn who is a client of mine thinks I should write as much as possible about everything...so everything stays clear incase I start to forget and need to remember something...he is right.

Freya - R.I.P. 09/15/05